Tommy Dreamer Opens Up on his Battle with Depression

Jul 1, 2019 - by James Walsh

Tommy Dreamer recently appeared on Busted Open Radio to discuss why he decided to share his story of depression and considering murdering Paul Heyman at WrestleMania 17 on his House of Hardcore Podcast. Below is an excerpt of Dreamer explaining why he shared his story.

On why he decided to share his story: “The main reason why I did this was because in two weeks two people killed themselves. And one, Ashley Massaro, I was supposed to meet her the next day, and the other person was Lionheart, and I didn’t know Lionheart, and I’ll read to you his last tweet, ‘One day you will eat your last meal, you will smell your last flower, you will hug your friend for the last time, you might not know it’s the last time, that’s why you must do everything you love with passion. Afterlife.’ And then he killed himself. He reached out, and then I saw Matt Hardy was like, ‘I spoke to him yesterday, he congratulated me on the birth of my child.’ I spoke to his friend that I know were his friends because I’ve gone through this loss of people doing that, and one guy, I’m not going to say who it was, he was like, I literally was talking to him yesterday, another guy, I was talking to him yesterday, and I’m sure if he would have just told the world, ‘Hey, I’m thinking of killing myself,’ the world would have told him how bad of an idea that was.”

On when he was depressed, and the difference between being depressed and battling depression: “It’s OK to have a sad day. It’s OK, but you have to fight through it. And I then talked about a moment in my head where life wasn’t good for me. And I’m not going to go into it because I don’t hate Paul Heyman. And it was just, when you’re sitting up late at night and thinking all these horrible thoughts, you get lost in your own head. And it was brought out to me by someone that there is a big difference between being depressed and someone who fights depression, and people who fight depression need help, and if you’re depressed, it’s much different. And I was depressed, I don’t fight or have depression, but I wanted to tell everyone, hey, even the guy you see on TV, even for me, I was in the best shape of my life, I’d go to the gym every day, but I was numb, there were some days I didn’t wake up because this thing I loved, ECW, was now gone, the person who I thought was my friend, betrayed me, my parents, I had lost so much money, all this stuff, and I was just walking around like a robot, and I don’t want people to ever feel like that.”

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